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To My Special Friend
A 'tribute' for my frenship...which only last for few months...haha

Ermmm...try remember everything xD

i know u since im standard 6....dat time u hv short hair...u r still a small lil girl...haha..which look cute...u same bus with me...so almost everyday...after skol..when we are in the bus, on the way to home...we usually will argue for fun...den i ejek u..u ejek me...small kid~~~haha childish betul

Den ...next year...i form 1 liao lorrr...
de memory start to bcome blurrer and blurrer..lol
almost cant rmb d...
haiz duno y i cant completely forget about u =.=

So de story cont when i was form3...u enter the secondary school
ermm...dat day went pss with some friend...lol cant rmb went with who d...just can rmb i saw u...with spec....but now long hair d....still look cute xD lol...dat day u look so blur leh...
i oso duno y i still can rmb ur name...haha...

ermm 3months b4 PMR...sudd feel like want to know more about u....haha...duno y la...i mmg gila 1..mayb bcoz i dun hv any sister..mayb i attracted by ur special personality...mayb there are no reason...

so one day~~~~ my noob brother challenge me...he ask me to get your email....
lol y not?! so i went and find u the next day...and ask for ur email =.= u wrote it on a paper and gave me....mana tau after i went home i just throw to somewhere...cant rmb where i put....
lol so hv to ask from u again lor...

so 2nd time..i asked u to write on my hand...luckily..dis time i din lost the email add...=.= coz i din lost my hand

so since dat year is PMR's year...nobody will online and chat...except for solou like me...ermm i think dat time we still r not fren...

coz we din really share secret and prob...just normal chat...but at least i can know more bout u lor...when chat with u quite shuang lor...coz u really cute leh xDDDDD

form 4 (ok~~~~ no more PMR~~~~)
Cont lor...
Jan,2008
ur bday oh....bought something for u lor...friend ma...haiz
mana tau some org gila say i like u @.@ cr8 rumuor...lol luckily u dun care...so i oso dun care lor...coz u mmg popular de ma..so if got guy bought bday present for u oso normal la...

dat nite u sudd tell me ur fren say i like u..i really think dat's funny la...u can be my small lil sister man...i not dat bian tai...hahaha


feb,2008
ermm one day....my 8-ness ( i cr8 dis word xD can und ah?) make me ask u some question....4gt wat question already....

duno how...u told me some of ur 'secret'...i oso duno la...mayb they're ur secret....i just listen lor...then i just keep it lor...

lol u're lucky...this year i chg abit..i won't spread other ppl's secret d...
then duno which day in feb...start sms ...lol i think now we're friend d~~~

End of Feb
O.o hari sukan...
after hari sukan...2 so lou came my house lor...want play game...i on-ing msn...den they ma saw i chatting with u lor... =.= actually nth oso rite? so they saw oso nvm rite?? but duno la..mayb their brain too good...or mayb they got no brain~.~ they say i like u =.=

so they went and spread in skol lor...=.=lll
i dun care la...but mayb u care~~~

March,2008
ok...end of the story...frenship ended with a sms...since dat day...no more msn..no more sms...in skol of coz wont talk la...so bcome stranger lor...i duno u..u duno me ...but this time...the memory will last forever...the moment i spend with u is the moment i treasure =) Friends forever....u will oways be my friend....

Duno y..sum guy really no guts...tok to girl oso scare...den kena ejek malu malu 'anjing'...lol
den i oso duno y...some guys can fall easily for girl...den summore can say the girl is a porkchop..if she is a porkchop..y u fall for her?! (if u say her porkchop again..i will chop off ur head =.=) lol after holiday must go sebar in skol xD cm fall for girl~~~ fell into longkang xD even me can control better den u do leh....but dat girl really lenglui+charming la... cm next time kful oh ....wahahaha

lol
felicia talk and sing in mandarin...i shud go buy lottery today..100% can win
de way she tok damn good lorr
pinyin oso good
not like today's song ldr...cacat geh =x
ytd i tot she will malu malu when sing today..but today she sing quite loud la..
haha
at least i can hear..lol

nice try feli~~~~ keep on trying..ur mandarin is good =)

If I had to live my life without you near me

The days would all be empty

The nights would seem so long

With you I see forever oh, so clearly

I might have been in love before

But it never felt this strong

(Im living in a life without YOU...dat's y everyday i trying to stay bck in skol after skol...living alone at home make me feel lonely..den i start thinking about YOU...well dis is not de 1st time i like some1...but seriously...i hv never like some1 until so deep...u living deep in my heart~~forever...)

Our dreams are young and we both know

They'll take us where we want to go

Hold me now,

Touch me now

I don't want to live without you

(Well dreams are still young...dats right..but too bad...this dream is so short...so i better sleep more..so can DREAM ON=.= everything is possible in dream...i can hold u...likes u...and i can confess to u...of coz i dunwan to live without u!!!! but im living without u. . . . . . )

Nothing's gonna change my love for you

You wanna know by now how much i love you

One thing you can be sure of

I'll never ask for more than your love

Nothing's gonna change my love for you

You wanna know by now how much i love you

Probably change my whole life through

Nothing's gonna change my love for you

(I just wan ur love..im willing to sacrifice anything for u...nothing's gonna change my love for u...nothing~~ nothing~~ my bro keep telling me u r not a gud girl...so wat?! I LOVE u...YOU just hv to be URSELF...u r a gud girl or bad girl i can observer myself...no nid yall to tell me!!! ermm actually yall can tell la...u can tok wateva u wan...but seriously..i dun care...i LOVE her...)

If the road ahead is not so easy

Our love will be the way it was

Like a guiding star

And i'll be there for you if you should need me

You don't have to change a thing

I love you just the way you are

So come with me and i'll share with you i'll help to see forever too

Hold me now,

Touch me now

I don't wanna live without you

(Dats wat i said...i like de way u living now...love is a guiding star..love is a kind of feeling...it does not required any reason...not like wat cm said...must hv reason...LOVE=feeling...feeling oso need reason?! hey!!!...plss dun chg for any1...u looks great and u r almost perfect now......i cant help u to c forever..*sigh* nvm...i know im not good enuf...so i wont be greedy...just wan to be ur fren =) trying my best to be ur fren again)

Nothing's gonna change my love for you

You wanna know by now how much i love you

One thing you can be sure of

I'll never ask for more than your love

Nothing's gonna change my love for you

You wanna know by now how much i love you

Probably change my whole life through

Nothing's gonna change my love for you ~~~~

[duno wat i crap~~~~ just some way for me to spilt some of my feeling..if keep in mind..im goin to die..feel so much better d =) ]

--a nice song by Glenn Medeiros

=.= i dun like to come home....damn boring....

everyday oso same oni...online den stare at screen...duno wat the heck i can do....my frens all oso bz with their stuff...haiz

all of them got their frens( i mean really close type)...mayb i shud find 1??? =.= sot....its so damn bloody difficult to find 1....human like me...good for nth...i know im a spoiler..=.= be my close fren will oni make u bcome unlucky~~~seriously...dats y until now i dun hv a close fren...i cr8 dis blog bcoz i dun hv any1 for me to complain...my family members all bz doin work..playing games and watching tv...my frens...bz studying..pt-ing...chatting and watching tv too...BUT blog wont bz bz...24hours ready for me...ready to listen my complain...

after my 1st post oni i know blog is damn nice...at least i got 1 place to reduce my stress...i oso got feeling man...im not iron man =.=

i oso will gt hurt...nowadays mood really getting damn down...today is worse...alone at home make me scared...feel so lonely...last year online still can help abit...coz at least there r some1 dat will talk to me...

dis year...after march i feel like im goin crazy...at home its so quiet...its like no living thing in my house....

den i on msn..listen some songs....den sometimes mayb tertidur...

*sigh*
dis is my life..have to accept it
hope i can find a real fren...i mean a true fren...
1 oredi enuf....

Haiz
nowaday im so down...feel like nothing good happen to me only... i cant blif...i cant do physics paper!!!! WTH?!

Exam is tough for me ( of coz la...din study = =) Every paper oso same..i tembak oni...din double...terus sleep...

2moro is chemistry 1 ... haiz..i hope i can score in chemistry...i hope i can do something better den other ppl...until now i cant c any bakat in me...i hate myself so much...

den holidays coming= = damn it...i hate holidays...coz everytime holiday oso nth to do...ermm dis time mayb better la..coz join BB d~~~ hope can go de camp~~~
den at least i got something to do...

i make some new frenz in BB...lol
~lenglui banana josh( form3 de lenglui)
i duno y feli call him lenglui...but i just folo la...haha..coz he dun mind oso~~
he oso having exam...wish him good luck..lol

wat else ah??? ermm~~~ zien ask me go out dis holiday...errr but dunwan la...i dunwan to be spoiler = = spoil ppl mood for wat??? they all go out to hv fun ma... so bad meh go kacau ppl...spoil ppl mood... i knew im bad... but haven sot until wan go spoil ppls' holiday plan..haha

hmmm later got tuition~~~ sienz lor.. nobody on9...tuition gonna be damn boring la....i hope today no nid wait my acc tuition teacher...he oways late...damn him!!!!

dats all for today...i know my day is boring~~~ *yawn*
oops today 4gt to sleep..haha

----tk----

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing

Watch you smile while you are sleeping

While you're far away and dreaming

I could spend my life in this sweet surrender

I could stay lost in this moment forever

Every moment spent with you is a moment of treasure
( still can rmb every moment i spend with u~~~ i know de next day got skol...but i just cant control myself...cant stop msg u...i really can stay awake just for u..and i wish i can spend every moment in my life with u...i hope u know?! erm no!!! i hope u duno...if u duno..i think now we still can be fren....)



Don't want to close my eyes

I don't want to fall asleep

Cause I'd miss you babe

And I don't want to miss a thing

Cause even when I dream of you

The sweetest dream will never do

I'd still miss you babe

And I don't want to miss a thing
( i cant belif..even after i close my eye..i still thinking of u...i dream of u too...[my bro told me..coz i share my room with my bro...he say i keep saying kat's name]....after 4 month...no msn, no sms, no talk...i really miss u...everything happened in my dream will never happen in real life...i know~~u will never tok to me again)



Lying close to you feeling your heart beating

And I'm wondering what you're dreaming

Wondering if it's me you're seeing

Then I kiss your eyes

And thank God we're together

I just want to stay with you in this moment forever

Forever and ever
(all dis thing will never happen in my life...i can feel the pain of my heart...my heart is bleeding...these thing will oni happen in my dream....dats y nowaday i like to sleep so much)



Don't want to close my eyes

I don't want to fall asleep

Cause I'd miss you babe

And I don't want to miss a thing

Cause even when I dream of you

The sweetest dream will never do

I'd still miss you babe

And I don't want to miss a thing
(mayb i shud learn from anson...i must learn how to let go...let it past...concentrate on my study..stop dreaming)



I don't want to miss one smile

I don't want to miss one kiss

I just want to be with you

Right here with you, just like this

I just want to hold you close

Feel your heart so close to mine

And just stay here in this moment

For all the rest of time
(but everytime i c ur pic in frenster...in msn...i know i cant 4gt u...cant 4gt everything about u...ur smile...de way u talk...ur msg...i wish i can go bck to de moment...de moment v spent 2gether)



Don't want to close my eyes

I don't want to fall asleep

Cause I'd miss you babe

And I don't want to miss a thing

Cause even when I dream of you

The sweetest dream will never do

I'd still miss you babe

And I don't want to miss a thing




Don't want to close my eyes

I don't want to fall asleep

I don't want to miss a thing
(i know u cant c all dis...but if got chance..i really wanna tell u..i miss u so much....)

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